1 My hair is grey, but not with years,
2 Nor grew it white
3 In a single night,
4 As men's have grown from sudden fears:
5 My limbs are bow'd, though not with toil,
6 But rusted with a vile repose,
7 For they have been a dungeon's spoil,
8 And mine has been the fate of those
9 To whom the goodly earth and air
10 Are bann'd, and barr'd--forbidden fare;
11 But this was for my father's faith
12 I suffer'd chains and courted death;
13 That father perish'd at the stake
14 For tenets he would not forsake;
15 And for the same his lineal race
16 In darkness found a dwelling place;
17 We were seven--who now are one,
18 Six in youth, and one in age,
19 Finish'd as they had begun,
20 Proud of Persecution's rage;
21 One in fire, and two in field,
22 Their belief with blood have seal'd,
23 Dying as their father died,
24 For the God their foes denied;--
25 Three were in a dungeon cast,
26 Of whom this wreck is left the last.
27 There are seven pillars of Gothic mould,
28 In Chillon's dungeons deep and old,
29 There are seven columns, massy and grey,
30 Dim with a dull imprison'd ray,
31 A sunbeam which hath lost its way,
32 And through the crevice and the cleft
33 Of the thick wall is fallen and left;
34 Creeping o'er the floor so damp,
35 Like a marsh's meteor lamp:
36 And in each pillar there is a ring,
37 And in each ring there is a chain;
38 That iron is a cankering thing,
39 For in these limbs its teeth remain,
40 With marks that will not wear away,
41 Till I have done with this new day,
42 Which now is painful to these eyes,
43 Which have not seen the sun so rise
44 For years--I cannot count them o'er,
45 I lost their long and heavy score
46 When my last brother droop'd and died,
47 And I lay living by his side.
48 They chain'd us each to a column stone,
49 And we were three--yet, each alone;
50 We could not move a single pace,
51 We could not see each other's face,
52 But with that pale and livid light
53 That made us strangers in our sight:
54 And thus together--yet apart,
55 Fetter'd in hand, but join'd in heart,
56 'Twas still some solace in the dearth
57 Of the pure elements of earth,
58 To hearken to each other's speech,
59 And each turn comforter to each
60 With some new hope, or legend old,
61 Or song heroically bold;
62 But even these at length grew cold.
63 Our voices took a dreary tone,
64 An echo of the dungeon stone,
65 A grating sound, not full and free,
66 As they of yore were wont to be:
67 It might be fancy--but to me
68 They never sounded like our own.
69 I was the eldest of the three
70 And to uphold and cheer the rest
71 I ought to do--and did my best--
72 And each did well in his degree.
73 The youngest, whom my father loved,
74 Because our mother's brow was given
75 To him, with eyes as blue as heaven--
76 For him my soul was sorely moved:
77 And truly might it be distress'd
78 To see such bird in such a nest;
79 For he was beautiful as day--
80 (When day was beautiful to me
81 As to young eagles, being free)--
82 A polar day, which will not see
83 A sunset till its summer's gone,
84 Its sleepless summer of long light,
85 The snow-clad offspring of the sun:
86 And thus he was as pure and bright,
87 And in his natural spirit gay,
88 With tears for nought but others' ills,
89 And then they flow'd like mountain rills,
90 Unless he could assuage the woe
91 Which he abhorr'd to view below.
92 The other was as pure of mind,
93 But form'd to combat with his kind;
94 Strong in his frame, and of a mood
95 Which 'gainst the world in war had stood,
96 And perish'd in the foremost rank
97 With joy:--but not in chains to pine:
98 His spirit wither'd with their clank,
99 I saw it silently decline--
100 And so perchance in sooth did mine:
101 But yet I forced it on to cheer
102 Those relics of a home so dear.
103 He was a hunter of the hills,
104 Had followed there the deer and wolf;
105 To him this dungeon was a gulf,
106 And fetter'd feet the worst of ills.
107 Lake Leman lies by Chillon's walls:
108 A thousand feet in depth below
109 Its massy waters meet and flow;
110 Thus much the fathom-line was sent
111 From Chillon's snow-white battlement,
112 Which round about the wave inthralls:
113 A double dungeon wall and wave
114 Have made--and like a living grave
115 Below the surface of the lake
116 The dark vault lies wherein we lay:
117 We heard it ripple night and day;
118 Sounding o'er our heads it knock'd;
119 And I have felt the winter's spray
120 Wash through the bars when winds were high
121 And wanton in the happy sky;
122 And then the very rock hath rock'd,
123 And I have felt it shake, unshock'd,
124 Because I could have smiled to see
125 The death that would have set me free.
126 I said my nearer brother pined,
127 I said his mighty heart declined,
128 He loathed and put away his food;
129 It was not that 'twas coarse and rude,
130 For we were used to hunter's fare,
131 And for the like had little care:
132 The milk drawn from the mountain goat
133 Was changed for water from the moat,
134 Our bread was such as captives' tears
135 Have moisten'd many a thousand years,
136 Since man first pent his fellow men
137 Like brutes within an iron den;
138 But what were these to us or him?
139 These wasted not his heart or limb;
140 My brother's soul was of that mould
141 Which in a palace had grown cold,
142 Had his free breathing been denied
143 The range of the steep mountain's side;
144 But why delay the truth?--he died.
145 I saw, and could not hold his head,
146 Nor reach his dying hand--nor dead,--
147 Though hard I strove, but strove in vain,
148 To rend and gnash my bonds in twain.
149 He died--and they unlock'd his chain,
150 And scoop'd for him a shallow grave
151 Even from the cold earth of our cave.
152 I begg'd them, as a boon, to lay
153 His corse in dust whereon the day
154 Might shine--it was a foolish thought,
155 But then within my brain it wrought,
156 That even in death his freeborn breast
157 In such a dungeon could not rest.
158 I might have spared my idle prayer--
159 They coldly laugh'd--and laid him there:
160 The flat and turfless earth above
161 The being we so much did love;
162 His empty chain above it leant,
163 Such Murder's fitting monument!
164 But he, the favourite and the flower,
165 Most cherish'd since his natal hour,
166 His mother's image in fair face
167 The infant love of all his race
168 His martyr'd father's dearest thought,
169 My latest care, for whom I sought
170 To hoard my life, that his might be
171 Less wretched now, and one day free;
172 He, too, who yet had held untired
173 A spirit natural or inspired--
174 He, too, was struck, and day by day
175 Was wither'd on the stalk away.
176 Oh, God! it is a fearful thing
177 To see the human soul take wing
178 In any shape, in any mood:
179 I've seen it rushing forth in blood,
180 I've seen it on the breaking ocean
181 Strive with a swoln convulsive motion,
182 I've seen the sick and ghastly bed
183 Of Sin delirious with its dread:
184 But these were horrors--this was woe
185 Unmix'd with such--but sure and slow:
186 He faded, and so calm and meek,
187 So softly worn, so sweetly weak,
188 So tearless, yet so tender--kind,
189 And grieved for those he left behind;
190 With all the while a cheek whose bloom
191 Was as a mockery of the tomb
192 Whose tints as gently sunk away
193 As a departing rainbow's ray;
194 An eye of most transparent light,
195 That almost made the dungeon bright;
196 And not a word of murmur--not
197 A groan o'er his untimely lot,--
198 A little talk of better days,
199 A little hope my own to raise,
200 For I was sunk in silence--lost
201 In this last loss, of all the most;
202 And then the sighs he would suppress
203 Of fainting Nature's feebleness,
204 More slowly drawn, grew less and less:
205 I listen'd, but I could not hear;
206 I call'd, for I was wild with fear;
207 I knew 'twas hopeless, but my dread
208 Would not be thus admonishèd;
209 I call'd, and thought I heard a sound--
210 I burst my chain with one strong bound,
211 And rushed to him:--I found him not,
212 I only stirred in this black spot,
213 I only lived, I only drew
214 The accursed breath of dungeon-dew;
215 The last, the sole, the dearest link
216 Between me and the eternal brink,
217 Which bound me to my failing race
218 Was broken in this fatal place.
219 One on the earth, and one beneath--
220 My brothers--both had ceased to breathe:
221 I took that hand which lay so still,
222 Alas! my own was full as chill;
223 I had not strength to stir, or strive,
224 But felt that I was still alive--
225 A frantic feeling, when we know
226 That what we love shall ne'er be so.
227 I know not why
228 I could not die,
229 I had no earthly hope--but faith,
230 And that forbade a selfish death.
231 What next befell me then and there
232 I know not well--I never knew--
233 First came the loss of light, and air,
234 And then of darkness too:
235 I had no thought, no feeling--none--
236 Among the stones I stood a stone,
237 And was, scarce conscious what I wist,
238 As shrubless crags within the mist;
239 For all was blank, and bleak, and grey;
240 It was not night--it was not day;
241 It was not even the dungeon-light,
242 So hateful to my heavy sight,
243 But vacancy absorbing space,
244 And fixedness--without a place;
245 There were no stars, no earth, no time,
246 No check, no change, no good, no crime
247 But silence, and a stirless breath
248 Which neither was of life nor death;
249 A sea of stagnant idleness,
250 Blind, boundless, mute, and motionless!
251 A light broke in upon my brain,--
252 It was the carol of a bird;
253 It ceased, and then it came again,
254 The sweetest song ear ever heard,
255 And mine was thankful till my eyes
256 Ran over with the glad surprise,
257 And they that moment could not see
258 I was the mate of misery;
259 But then by dull degrees came back
260 My senses to their wonted track;
261 I saw the dungeon walls and floor
262 Close slowly round me as before,
263 I saw the glimmer of the sun
264 Creeping as it before had done,
265 But through the crevice where it came
266 That bird was perch'd, as fond and tame,
267 And tamer than upon the tree;
268 A lovely bird, with azure wings,
269 And song that said a thousand things,
270 And seemed to say them all for me!
271 I never saw its like before,
272 I ne'er shall see its likeness more:
273 It seem'd like me to want a mate,
274 But was not half so desolate,
275 And it was come to love me when
276 None lived to love me so again,
277 And cheering from my dungeon's brink,
278 Had brought me back to feel and think.
279 I know not if it late were free,
280 Or broke its cage to perch on mine,
281 But knowing well captivity,
282 Sweet bird! I could not wish for thine!
283 Or if it were, in wingèd guise,
284 A visitant from Paradise;
285 For--Heaven forgive that thought! the while
286 Which made me both to weep and smile--
287 I sometimes deem'd that it might be
288 My brother's soul come down to me;
289 But then at last away it flew,
290 And then 'twas mortal well I knew,
291 For he would never thus have flown--
292 And left me twice so doubly lone,--
293 Lone as the corse within its shroud,
294 Lone as a solitary cloud,
295 A single cloud on a sunny day,
296 While all the rest of heaven is clear,
297 A frown upon the atmosphere,
298 That hath no business to appear
299 When skies are blue, and earth is gay.
300 A kind of change came in my fate,
301 My keepers grew compassionate;
302 I know not what had made them so,
303 They were inured to sights of woe,
304 But so it was:--my broken chain
305 With links unfasten'd did remain,
306 And it was liberty to stride
307 Along my cell from side to side,
308 And up and down, and then athwart,
309 And tread it over every part;
310 And round the pillars one by one,
311 Returning where my walk begun,
312 Avoiding only, as I trod,
313 My brothers' graves without a sod;
314 For if I thought with heedless tread
315 My step profaned their lowly bed,
316 My breath came gaspingly and thick,
317 And my crush'd heart felt blind and sick.
318 I made a footing in the wall,
319 It was not therefrom to escape,
320 For I had buried one and all,
321 Who loved me in a human shape;
322 And the whole earth would henceforth be
323 A wider prison unto me:
324 No child, no sire, no kin had I,
325 No partner in my misery;
326 I thought of this, and I was glad,
327 For thought of them had made me mad;
328 But I was curious to ascend
329 To my barr'd windows, and to bend
330 Once more, upon the mountains high,
331 The quiet of a loving eye.
332 I saw them--and they were the same,
333 They were not changed like me in frame;
334 I saw their thousand years of snow
335 On high--their wide long lake below,
336 And the blue Rhone in fullest flow;
337 I heard the torrents leap and gush
338 O'er channell'd rock and broken bush;
339 I saw the white-wall'd distant town,
340 And whiter sails go skimming down;
341 And then there was a little isle,
342 Which in my very face did smile,
343 The only one in view;
344 A small green isle, it seem'd no more,
345 Scarce broader than my dungeon floor,
346 But in it there were three tall trees,
347 And o'er it blew the mountain breeze,
348 And by it there were waters flowing,
349 And on it there were young flowers growing,
350 Of gentle breath and hue.
351 The fish swam by the castle wall,
352 And they seem'd joyous each and all;
353 The eagle rode the rising blast,
354 Methought he never flew so fast
355 As then to me he seem'd to fly;
356 And then new tears came in my eye,
357 And I felt troubled--and would fain
358 I had not left my recent chain;
359 And when I did descend again,
360 The darkness of my dim abode
361 Fell on me as a heavy load;
362 It was as is a new-dug grave,
363 Closing o'er one we sought to save,--
364 And yet my glance, too much opprest,
365 Had almost need of such a rest.
366 It might be months, or years, or days--
367 I kept no count, I took no note--
368 I had no hope my eyes to raise,
369 And clear them of their dreary mote;
370 At last men came to set me free;
371 I ask'd not why, and reck'd not where;
372 It was at length the same to me,
373 Fetter'd or fetterless to be,
374 I learn'd to love despair.
375 And thus when they appear'd at last,
376 And all my bonds aside were cast,
377 These heavy walls to me had grown
378 A hermitage--and all my own!
379 And half I felt as they were come
380 To tear me from a second home:
381 With spiders I had friendship made
382 And watch'd them in their sullen trade,
383 Had seen the mice by moonlight play,
384 And why should I feel less than they?
385 We were all inmates of one place,
386 And I, the monarch of each race,
387 Had power to kill--yet, strange to tell!
388 In quiet we had learn'd to dwell;
389 My very chains and I grew friends,
390 So much a long communion tends
391 To make us what we are:--even I
Byron, George Gordon, Lord. "The Prisoner Of Chillon." Literary Selections. Compiled by J. Massengill. 18 June 2005. http://coastalbend.home.att.net/lit
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